"--- layout: poem title: Bareback category: rent author: Cullen J. Sanchez bio: Cullen J. Sanchez is a gay poet from Pittsburgh. url1: twitter.com/cullenjsanchez url2: https://instagram.com/cullenjsanchez ---

We approach life

hoping most for a tender touch, a 

soft kiss on the neck

an empathetic embrace

but the truth is,

life is going to fuck the hell out you.


The bastard is going to ride you from behind with a greasy hand over your mouth

while you’re bent over a dumpster in an alleyway


and I hope you’re not sensitive to size, brother, because life is hung in my experience


thick, veiny

intimidatingly pendulous

a few sizes too big for us all

he’s got a fist-sized head and a baby arm of a shaft


he’s going to penetrate you stretching your insides at the seams pulling at your hair in his fist

and naturally, he’s going in dry, life can’t even spell “lubricant”


he’s going to choke you

tears forming in your eyelid creases

mouth stretched widest while your jaw goes numb


Life will leave you exhausted

Life will leave you raging

Life will leave you covered in cum.


it’s a fruitless effort

to try and make this more bearable the positions all leave you

with the same pain 


the only option is, wait your turn

and when he’s not looking 

straddle the motherfucker and tear that ass up


dig your nails into the side of his thighs, spit on your hand and slap him in the face


don’t even think about a reach-around, and 

only stop if you see blood.


fuck life with twice the intensity and all the disdain he threw at you.


Life will never show you love. 

It’s up to you to show life lust.